Did I just spend the night crying to “True Love” and “Fly On” by Coldplay?
Probably two of the saddest songs I’ve ever heard.
Looks like we’re heading there my love.
And my heart is in pieces even before it happens.
I’m already mourning for it.
I love you S…
Today is the 15h day of my fasting for the month of Ramadhan.
And I made it halfway which still continues to surprise me.
I just decided to jump right into fasting without any preparation and anyone to do it with me at home.
On the second and third day, I even failed to wake up to take Suhoor. Thank God work was a bit light in those days.
What I wanna do next is Salah or prayer. And I think I can.
I’m gonna post again before Eid. I’m excited. But I have to say that the only difficult thing about this is fasting alone.
I hope next Ramadhan will be better.
Alhamdullilah for everything.
I have been living and working in Oman for three years and four months now and sometimes it still feels like I just arrived here.
In the past few months I have been doing a lot of evaluation about my life. I wonder if this is normal for a 27 year old like me. However, I cannot stop thinking about where I went and where I’m heading.
Sometimes I feel like I wasted my early 20s doing absolutely nothing, or doing absolutely useless things like going out with friends and spending too much time on social networking instead of travelling and studying and just improving myself.
My 20s went by so fast and I only have about 2 years left and I wonder what could I do? I’m not satisfied with my life. I feel like there’s something else I need to do but I don’t know what exactly and why I feel that way.
I’m pretty sure I’m not alone. I’m sure some 27 year old woman or man somewhere in the world right now is thinking about the same thing.
How do I get over this feeling of inadequacy and dissatisfaction? Is this just a phase?
That’s basically the words that I would use to sum up my life right now.
Lost all my photos due to the the sudden errors of technology.
I probably won’t be able to transfer to the hospital of my choice by the looks of it.
I can’t sleep at night.
I’m turning 27 in a month.
Nothing is going right. My life is going downhill and it’s going fast.
I’m afraid that I’m really starting to hate Facebook lately.
Too many attention hungry “friends”, most of them I just barely know.
Well, in case one of them reads this:
I might be guilty about some of these things in the past. But at least, I never spammed or made a thousand selfies, or flooded my news feed of everything me, me, me, and me.
I read it somewhere before that Facebook makes you hate people. And I’m slowly getting there.
I watched six movies today! What a way to kill the time huh? Here they are:
1. Looper - Entertaining. I don’t like the creepy kid.
2. Coraline - Just watched it to see how it gives justice to the book. Skipped a lot of scenes
3. Vacancy - I had a couple of screams and wished I had Kate Beckinsale’s body.
4. The Roommate - Why am I not as pretty as Leighton Meester? How can she be this pretty? Anyway, I think her acting was good in this film.
5. Titanic - For old time’s sake. Sooo much time in my hands. LOL
6. The Illusionist - Oh I totally love Rufus Sewell! I want to see him in more movies! Edward Norton was a bit disappointing here. Why does he always look kinda depressed and angry? Jessica Biel’s British accent is horrible.
Those are just the tip of my observations. You know I’m too lazy to write long posts.
But not lazy enough to lay in the couch and watch movies all day.
Give Leo an Oscar already!
Now I skipped three days from my workout because of my night shifts.
However, I can feel and see slight changes in my body.
I hope I’m not imagining things.
Had a very benign morning shift today.
Ate two slices of Turkish pizza (lots of olives with almost no meat on it) today and I feel so guilty.
I have to workout now to stop that little nagging voice on my head, telling me to sweat and burn down the pizza.
How long will I live like this?
Nothing like a baby announcement, two new relationship posts, and several engagements on my fb newsfeed to amplify my soul crushing singleness.
Story of my life.
And oh, for some mysterious reason, all my Iphone photos disappeared without a trace this morning. I’m still lucky to have a back up of my pictures up to the month of May.However, all the June photos are gone, and that includes the snapshots of my first encounter with a huge turtle and videos of it digging her nest, laying eggs and walking back to the sea.
WTF Iphone? Bring back my photos (and videos).
So decided to seriously shed some weight this time and hopefully earn a body worth of a bikini or at least a one piece swim suit for my vacation on December.
It’s my 3rd day of doing Insanity workout today and I have to admit that I’m not doing hard enough. My legs ache like hell and I’m struggling through those push ups.
Also, I’m taking more water breaks that I should.
God, how do these people do this craziness?
I think this is the second day in my whole life that I’ve never seen or talked to another human being personally. I mean, I chatted and talked to someone on the phone but seeing one? No.
This only happens here on the island I’m currently working at.
God, I cannot wait for the day that I can get out of here.
Anyway, I’m currently reading A Secret Garden, very easy to read except for the texts on the Yorkshire accent. And I remember when I was a kid, that there was a cartoon show about Mary and the secret garden which I would watch every morning. And then I would play at the empty lots near our house and believed that there was also a secret garden somewhere that I should find. I never did. Or at least, I grew out of it.
Nothing much is happening with my life right now. My self-teaching of Arabic is at a stall, my reading habits are erratic. I spent almost the whole day today sleeping. And now I’m sleepy.
Until the next post. I don’t even know if someone reads this but to whoever you are, thank you for taking the time to peek into my extraordinarily boring life.